i am starting to beleive i should leave discussions about my psychological issues between me and a counseler. i was talking to one of the people i lied to about faking my suicide, i apologized, and the conversation spiraled into one were he analyzed me and told me nothing i wanted to hear( read, we were in a chatroom). he agreed that i was antisocial and he said i had childlike tendancies. but what he said subsequent to his analysis made me second guess the plans i have for my future. he said it would be unlikely for me to achive a romantic relationship with this guy that i love.

baz luhrman said in the song 'everybody is free to wear sunscreen' "Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia; dispensing it is a way of wishing the past from the disposal--wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and recycling it for more than it's worth."

pertaining to my situation i don't know whetehr i should beleive my friend or whati feel. i still find it easier to do nothing, that way nothing is lost and nothing is gained. so familiar is that action, i await if with a loving embrace.